MOVED

sorry...I've kept you all in the dark.

I've joined tumblr, and have been using tumblr.

http://url1lmissy.tumblr.com/

Write NOW!

I feel bad for my blog..I've definitely neglected it during my months in Shanghai. I wish I could have filled it with the many epic stories and food adventures that I got to experience, but due to technical difficulties...I didn't get to it.

Here's to posts to come, here in Socal.

I'm just going to write this now......so that I'll actually start!

write right now!

The Day We Both Dreaded

finally came. Now with swollen eyes, I'm back to square one. We'll have to see where fate takes us.

Broken- Lifehouse

"Broken"

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain, there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (in the pain), is there healing
In your name (in your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be OK

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

Expectations

Coming to China, there were so many things I anticipated and expected. But being here, there are so many more things-some planned and some surprisingly unexpected that have happened. Of course...I expected my Chinese to improve, to meet my dad, to be uncomfortable, homesick at times, meet new friends, make mistakes, but all in all, have great experiences. What I didn't expect was...... studying the hardest for my Chinese class, to spend as much time with my dad as I did, to make FSA as my home, to find a family, to learn from my mistakes, and finally to have the time of my life.

With all this said, I can also say, I never expected things back home to steer the wrong direction. My heart breaks, hearing news from home. I never expected things back home to be as bad as they are or to even hear the news of death. I can only hope that God is watching over my loved ones, and that He'll take care of them in due time. I feel so broken, but even though at times I feel like China is a black hole, God has managed to surround me with love and support. I manage to find God in the people I meet and the unexpected situations He's placed me in.

After going to my first bible study since being here, I got to meet others who were feeling as broken as I was these past couple weeks. One woman gave me this passage and I took it to heart. It was a promise God said to Jeremiah:

'If you stay in this land, I will build you up and not tear you down; I will plant you and not uproot you, for I am grieved over the disaster I have inflicted on you. ¹¹ Do not be afraid of the king of Babylon, whom you now fear. Do not be afraid of him, declares the LORD, for I am with you and will save you and deliver you from his hands. ¹² I will show you compassion so that he will have compassion on you and restore you to your land.'

RIP
Aunt Nancy

I miss you. see you soon.

Things I never thought I'd do...in Shanghai

I know I haven't updated in ages...especially since its almost been two whole months since I've arrived in Shanghai. I guess its safe to say that I've finally accumulated enough crazy things to make a list of things that I thought I'd never do. So..here it goes.

1. Shower a girl with my clothes on
2. Ride a Rickshaw in search to find the teddy bear man.
3. Eat all kinds of foods on sticks (skewers)
4. Sit in China's hospital and puke out IV
5. Puke in a Taxi Cab
6. Randomly fall upon the grand opening of a hotel and witness open bar and free caviar
7. Eat Lawry's Prime Rib (for the first time)
8. Go to a Jazz club
9. Miss American Fast food (In n out)
10. Take drinks from a bucket
11. KTV til 5 in the morning
12. Be addicted to sour milk (literal translation)
13. Dancing on stage
14. Joining a Gym
15. Biking outside the school walls
16. Meeting great friends
17. Falling for someone
18. Finding a church and spending Easter Sunday there
19. Having 4 day weekends
20. Teaching English at Migrant schools

the list goes on....tbc

learn my lesson.

fool me once, shame on you.
fool me twice, shame on me
fool me three times, shame on me
fool me four, five, six, and even seven..shame on me.

fool me again..and I'm done for.